It is with much regret that I have to re-live the moments of terror and agony in the coming year. To my dismay, I was given a most unfavorable condition in which my performance could not be optimzed. While I have to admit my own shortcomings, I still think that I am not the worst in the peck. Maybe I am, but I am not worthy of this treatment.

Things could have been far worse for me and I am seeing it as a kind of punishment for the wrong decisions that I have made over the years. I am committed to righting my wrongs. It is time to turn a new leaf.

In retrospect, if I had been faithful to who I really was, I would not be caught in the predicament I am experiencing as I write. Caged in my own conceit, I am now paying the debt.